This isn't the first time
I've asked for money or love
Heaven and earth
Don't ever mean enough
Speak to me
Of heroin and speed
Just give me something
I can believe
I've asked for money or love
Heaven and earth
Don't ever mean enough
Speak to me
Of heroin and speed
Just give me something
I can believe
I liked shit better when I was carefree instead of just careless. I liked shit better when I actually had something to believe in. I liked shit better when I could be perfectly happy without being loaded on caffeine or other substances. I liked shit better when everyone I cared about was still around. I liked shit better when I wasnt dropping five dollars every fucking day on a slow suffocating death. I liked shit better when there was something to motivate me. I liked shit better when I felt wanted instead of abandoned. I liked shit better when I didnt give a flying fuck about being judged.
The things I do like, I'm twenty pounds lighter, more confident, and feel like fighting every fucking thing that's making me feel like this pathetic shit bag i've been turning into.
I don't want to be anyone's fucking bitch ever again.
Whenever the hell I manage to hit rock bottom, the only way to go is up.
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